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The Fragile

Tue Sep 1, 2009, 12:03 PM
School started today. I'm depressed. Not just because of school, but because of everything leading up to it. I've had a boring, rainy, summer- I spent the nights trying to fall asleep, and half the days in bed or just sitting around not knowing what to do, or in summer school for failing math. I've either given up on most of my friends, or we're not friends anymore for various reasons, so I didn't have many people to do things with over the summer. Even when my cousin came over I felt alone. Even when I was on vacation with my family I felt alone; they don't understand me- that only just now began to bother me a bit. I can't be very open to them and tell them my thoughts or feelings. Maybe I'm just making up more reasons to feel depressed... Now it's school and my classes basically suck; nobody is really there to talk to friend-wise. I have a few friends, but still... One class is especially sucky because I have all the people that a year ago I'd have loved to have in a class, now I hate them. I've always wanted to try and distance myself from people... now when it's finally happening, I'm starting to wonder if it's the right thing to do and such. From there, I keep reminding myself- as if subconsciously the thoughts creep into my head- this is life. Monotonous, redundant. I don't live for myself or for someone I love, I live for an institution. Plus, I'm becoming an adult- more responsibilities and such; the thought of being an adult is kind of unsettling for me. Plus, going back to the feeling of loneliness, lately the hope for someone to love is more frequent; I feel like a hopeless romantic who hasn't even had his first kiss and who lately is starting to hate myself more and more for all sorts of reasons. I realize my life is not worth complaining when compared to those far less fortunate than me, but I'd just feel better getting this off my chest a bit... To complete strangers over the Internet. And go ahead and call me an emo... I am emotional, after all. Just thankfully I'm not a scene kid emo camwhore. =X

"A pill to make you numb, a pill to make you dumb, a pill to make you anybody else..." -Manson

  • Mood: Neutral
  • Listening to: Coma White by Marilyn Manson

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I'm a digital artist, writer, and music producer. I've been doing all of that for about two and a half years. I definitely think I'm getting better with everything I make, and I look forward to getting super, crazy, awesome one of these days. Also, just to clarify, I tag all my work as "Cyberwave," which is the main name I use on most sites. However, when I registered for dA, the name was sadly already taken.

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  • Current Residence: Shrewsbury, MA.
  • Interests: Music, Art, Anime, Philosophy, Drumming, Web-Design
  • Favourite movie: District 9
  • Favourite band or musician: Efterklang. I also make my own music; Cyberwave
  • Favourite genre of music: Electronic, Metal, Jazz, Hip-Hop, Punk, Goth
  • Favourite artist: Vladimir Kush or Dali
  • Favourite poet or writer: Huxley
  • Favourite photographer: Love Photography, don't really know any photographers though.
  • Favourite style of art: Surreal, Minimal, Various kinds of Digital Work, Street Art
  • Operating System: Dell Dimension 4550m
  • MP3 player of choice: Zune
  • Wallpaper of choice: Something minimal and awesome.
  • Favourite game: Star Ocean: Last Hope
  • Favourite gaming platform: PC
  • Favourite cartoon character: FLAPJACK
  • Personal Quote: "God is dead, God Remains dead and we have killed him." -Nietzsche
  • Tools of the Trade: Gimp 2.6, CS2, Wacom Bamboo Tablet.

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:icongreencardlove:
Ay yo, thanks fer favin, buddy! :D

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:iconawwloveplz: :icontnxmanfav::icontnxmanfav2::icontnxmanfav3: :iconawwloveplz:

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'!everybody knows that life can be wonderful!'

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:iconjoeslucher:
Thanks for the fave!
:iconpeewee1002:
Cheers for the watch!

Noticed you were a maryiln Manson fan.
Good on you. His music is great.

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:icongl0wstick:
No problem.

And yes his music is delicious. :D

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"Words are but symbols for the relations of things to one another and to us; nowhere do they touch upon absolute truth." -Nietzsche

My music!
:iconjune-bug:
Thank you very much for the favourite. District 9 is also a shit hot film.
:icongl0wstick:
Yes. Yes it is.

And you're welcome very much. =D

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"Words are but symbols for the relations of things to one another and to us; nowhere do they touch upon absolute truth." -Nietzsche

My music!
:iconellie-koi:
Thanks so much for the favorite!
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:iconholbix:
aaa thanks for the fav on the flapjack drawing <3
:iconhaehime:
Thank you for the fave =)

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